Friday, January 16, 2009

The world is a heavy place.



I had my 21 week post all planned out and written for today, but I'm not going to post it right now. Perhaps I'll post it next week or sometime when I'm feeling more up to it.

I don't think I'll ever completely understand the way the world works. I believe in balance in the universe, but sometimes I don't see much evidence of that. And that is incredibly frustrating and heartbreaking. It makes me feel, well, heavy. Like there are a million cement blocks stacked on top of me. Like I'm trying to walk with a gravestone chained to my ankle.

I'm tired of tragic things happening to people I love and even to people I barely know. Things have happened this week that should not have happened, ever. It's not fair or right.

That's all.

(PS - I'm fine, and the baby's fine - but on an emotional level, things could be better. I realize I'm being cryptic, but that is unavoidable right now.)

11 comments:

WeezerMonkey said...

Whatever is happening, I hope things get better soon. I send you a big e-hug.

sherthebear said...

I am sorry for the bad things (what ever it is) I hope things get better soon!

inflammatory writ said...

Blah, the world is sort of shit for the moment. My last entry was all about that, as you know! Hang in there sweetie. <3

Bex said...

Whatever it is, so sorry you're having to deal with it. xoxo

phairhead said...

I'm sorry. I'll be thinking good thoughts for you

alejna said...

I'm so sorry for your grief, whatever its source. I know how cruel the fates can be.

I understand the need to be cryptic, too. Sometimes a story is not ours to share at this time, in this medium.

Erika said...

I feel you man....

Angie Eats Peace said...

What a week.

: /

Crazy Daisy said...

Hang in there! I am sorry to hear you are emotionally drained right now! It is crazy how certain thing just hit a person...

Brenda said...

Sending good thoughts and big hugs your way!

amber said...

:( hang in there and i hope things start looking up soon.