6 Days: Awake Bride

It is technically 5 days until the wedding, because it's past midnight, but I missed writing for the 6th day, so here I am. Yesterday morning I woke up feeling pretty crappy. I went to go get my dress - it looks great! Then I came home, climbed into bed, and pretty much stayed there. I slept some and also watched quite a few episodes of one of my favorite shows, Buffy the Vampire Slayer. The idea is to not get sick if I can help it. As of right now, I am feeling better than I was when I woke up yesterday morning, but I did develop a bad headache later on in the day, and it's still around. I'm not sure what to think about that, except that I could probably use a good massage. I have a regular massage therapist, and I'm going to give him a call to see if he can fit me in before Saturday.

I actually started packing for the night before the wedding, the wedding itself, the wedding night, and the honeymoon. It may seem silly, but I'm staying in a hotel alone the night before the wedding. I think I may hang out with my family some, because I never get to see them, but otherwise I would like to devote the night to some serious reflection. This is always what I do before a major event happens in my life. I remember sitting in my bed in my old room the last night I was alone before Roy and I moved in together. I wrote in my journal and made note of how my life was not going to be the same once we moved in together. Then again, ever since Roy came into my life, nothing has been the same. He truly turned my world upside down from the get-go. I expect no less in marrying him.

I have gotten to the point where I am more excited than anything. At this point, I don't feel anxious or stressed, although I think my body is. I am so excited to have my mom walk me down the aisle to Roy. I get chills thinking about it, and I hope I'm not blowing it out of proportion in my mind. You know, like when people expect so much from a certain event that they end up being let down (i.e., losing one's virginity).

I only have two days of work left! I don't know how I'm going to make it through them as I am so incredibly unfocused on anything outside of Weddingland. After that, my family flies into town, and then it will get chaotic. Bring on the chaos, I say. After the past 14 months of chaos and drama, I can handle a few more days.